Thursday, June 15, 2006

banana seat

stumble © Laura Kicey

Since coming home, I've had this gross feeling in the pit of my stomach. It has translated in my mind to a general malaise, a veil of worry. I left some loose ends before I left, which I returned to, still sailing in the wind. Returning from a week of fantastic adventures, I feel blunted by my same-old same-old town. But then I haven't really been out of the house for photowalking or for anything really, just plodding to work... where actual work is not to be had, we are so slow... so I just keep turning things over in my head. What do I do now? How do I restart doing the things I haven't done before? Especially when I have become so completely unmotivated to do so much as vacuum up what appears to be half a tree that blew through the air conditioner into my bedroom.

hitchhikers © Laura Kicey

The quickie fix for the weekend looks like I am shooting a bike race... which, like the car show, is uncharted territory... and subject matter I am rather indifferent too. As well as shooting style (action/sports photography uh? whuh?) I have ne'er delved into.

Oh so the opening photo. Right. I'm not being beaten, though I feel a little beat up. It is in the wake of this awesome refreshing force of experiencing this amazing place that all I have left physically are the bruises from 1. walking into a vicious metal pole, hidden in a fennel bush, while trespassing in the dark at the tag cathedral and 2. having a puddle kick my ass at the airport, the fall made it look like I couldn't dismount the moving walkway... and this gross feeling inside. I'm afraid I am going to go blind looking at my old life.


Anonymous Lucy said...

Sometimes periods of malaise precede periods of tremendous personal growth.

Sorry about your run in with the pole and the spill at the airport. Sounds extremely painful.

1:35 PM, June 15, 2006  
Blogger helveticaneue said...

I hope so. The bruises don't hurt so much, more of a reminder. Like the novelty t-shirt 'I went to so-and-so and all I got was this lousy tshirt.'

Oh and all reports of Merkley from those who are more in the know were glowing and fascinating. He actually visited my blog and asked what happened... miscommunications and me being shy. I'll just have to go back.

1:49 PM, June 15, 2006  

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